99% an embarrassment

God I’m excited to have a special Christmas with Jamie. So much has changed this year....

Sun, 16 Dec 2012 22:19:55 +0000

God I’m excited to have a special Christmas with Jamie. So much has changed this year. I’m happy :)

Coming back on here after however many months is abit strange. Looking back at how sad and down I...

Sat, 27 Oct 2012 17:58:37 +0100

Coming back on here after however many months is abit strange.

Looking back at how sad and down I was makes me realise how fucking happy I am now.

Thank you Jamie

I can’t sleep. Everything right this second has gone to shit and I’m in bed on the verge...

Mon, 16 Jul 2012 23:52:46 +0100

I can’t sleep. Everything right this second has gone to shit and I’m in bed on the verge of crying. At nearly one in the morning when I have to be up in 6 hours.
Fuck I wish I didn’t have a brain at night. Things at the pub have bought everything back.
I miss him.

It’s been a long time since I’ve written on here, but as the last few weeks have been...

Sat, 14 Jul 2012 23:55:36 +0100

It’s been a long time since I’ve written on here, but as the last few weeks have been pretty rubbish I thought I’d come and write.

Had an absolutely amazing time away with Annabel. I think it’s what we both needed. Was good to just do nothing, spend time in the sun reading and go out and eat nice food and drink lots of free alcohol. The Greeks are so nice! Being away and keeping in touch with the few people I did was nice. It was weird how things got between me and Rob but god, we’ve been friends through so many weird things I think our odd times are allowed.

Kept getting missed calls from a unknown number when I got back which I thought was the pub trying to get me into work. Turns out it wasn’t! On Matt’s 21st I wake up to another missed call a couple minutes earlier from a foreign number. Google the area code, its from Australia. Biggest heartattack but prank the number and seconds later get a phonecall back from him. Was the best sound hearing his voice after 6 months. I don’t think anyone could understand how amazing it was. Yes he was very drunk, yes he has a stupid accent, but I fucking miss my best friend. Ending a text to him with ‘lots of love’ perhaps wasn’t the most sensible of things while he was drunk, but getting ‘love you’ back wasn’t a bad thing. I miss him. But fuck it, I am happy. He is happy. And we have promised to see each other when he is back so I am happy.

Coming home from holiday to find out we are getting new management at work and nobody knows if they are keeping their jobs was definitely not great though. So it’s all a waiting game and everyone is pretty much pooing themselves. Joys. But I am now Nat where the hotel takeover is concerned next year whilst she is on maternity leave which I’m quite happy about! Something to keep me busy assuming I’m still there. It’s good to know that the college have agreed to it though, I must be doing something right!

This week as a whole has been pretty meh though. Tuesday was a horrible day. Wake up to find mum and dad gone to the doctors, and a hour later dads in hospital. Being at work wasn’t ideal. Was very glad to get him home 12 hours later and alive. Fuck A&E for screwing us all around. Just very glad they know what is the matter and are sorting things out next week. Tuesday was horrible. Tuesday I needed my best friends. But they were all out of the country!

And now it’s Saturday night. I’m home from having been at the pub all day. Won’t lie it has been stressful dealing with everyone trying to set me and Stuart up. Got to the point where I’m just agreeing to everything to get them off my back. Wish he was more talkative to either tell them to fuck off or actually talk to me though! Jeez whoever said guys were forthcoming was very wrong. It’s going to be all the same tomorrow and I can’t help but feeling its going to get a little too much all 9+ hours of it. Oh well.

Roll on day off Monday.

I really want this

Thu, 14 Jun 2012 23:00:21 +0100

I really want this

I don’t think any of this is a good idea but talking to you has made me realise how happy and...

Thu, 14 Jun 2012 00:08:04 +0100

I don’t think any of this is a good idea but talking to you has made me realise how happy and good I am. I don’t like knowing you’re missing home and how unsettled you are. I need to stop thinking about it and go to sleep. But yes I do miss you. Just not like before.

sometimes i wish i was a guy so i really didnt give a shit.

Thu, 31 May 2012 16:52:37 +0100

sometimes i wish i was a guy so i really didnt give a shit.

That’s kind of gutting /:

Thu, 31 May 2012 13:19:23 +0100

That’s kind of gutting /:

done it again

Wed, 30 May 2012 23:04:18 +0100

finally being honest to someone for the first time in forever has made me feel so much better. it...

Mon, 28 May 2012 22:51:11 +0100

finally being honest to someone for the first time in forever has made me feel so much better. it made me cry.

cannot frigging wait till 20th!!

Mon, 28 May 2012 17:07:24 +0100

hello Kos and week of sun, sea and sand :)

so frigging excited for Kos

Wed, 23 May 2012 23:32:05 +0100

4 weeks today :D

you need to be well and truly out of my head before you come home

Tue, 22 May 2012 19:24:13 +0100

i dont want a month of my summer ruined

is it just me or are people stupid?

Tue, 22 May 2012 16:29:51 +0100

’ instant coffee? what do you mean?’

You don’t realise how lonely you are until it’s pointed out.

Mon, 21 May 2012 01:52:41 +0100

You don’t realise how lonely you are until it’s pointed out.

looking forward to pay day

Sun, 20 May 2012 19:09:35 +0100

well needed saving and shopping

:)

Sun, 20 May 2012 18:46:34 +0100

this year has finally come to something good after all the horrible horrible stuff at the start.
uni is nearly finished and even though i know i havent worked hard i hope it went ok. and im actually looking forward to next year, and i am so so looking forward to graduation.
work is good. i feel so much part of the team now and we’re having fun sorting it staff celebration week, and planning the summer party.. love work parties!
and as the trial shift at the pigs went so well lastnight i now have a new job that i start saturday which will be fun! plus it means that sundays wont be boring anymore and there will be more money coming in for over summer and to go into savings for the big plans next summer!!

i have found the tour i want to go on, so its time to start saving properly. 32 days away from here is better than anything.. and then hopefully a week or so in canada aswell, then come back for graduation and to get on with the rest of my life.

im excited for the first time in a long time, and it took a stranger to make me realise. so thank you stranger, and maybe when youre back from america youll prove some more things to me!

ohh and the dream i had lastnight would have been so perfect had it of been real and i didnt wake up and yuppp.. damn you ha.

roll on 1st June :)

weekend

Wed, 16 May 2012 22:25:32 +0100

saturday lay in, zumba, chill, eat, trial shift, home, glass of wine.
sunday lay in, lazy day, sleep

perfect

Photo

Wed, 16 May 2012 18:43:21 +0100

casual conversations with strangers ending up in them knowing more then they should probably know...

Tue, 15 May 2012 23:54:46 +0100

casual conversations with strangers ending up in them knowing more then they should probably know about you what with them being likely to now want to talk to you at uni whenever you next see them. awkward.