God I’m excited to have a special Christmas with Jamie. So much has changed this year. I’m happy :)
Coming back on here after however many months is abit strange. Looking back at how sad and down I was makes me realise how fucking happy I am now. Thank you Jamie <3
I can’t sleep. Everything right this second has gone to shit and I’m in bed on the verge of crying. At nearly one in the morning when I have to be up in 6 hours. Fuck I wish I didn’t have a brain at night. Things at the pub have bought everything back. I miss him.
It’s been a long time since I’ve written on here, but as the last few weeks have been pretty rubbish I thought I’d come and write. Had an absolutely amazing time away with Annabel. I think it’s what we both needed. Was good to just do nothing, spend time in the sun reading and go out and eat nice food and drink lots of free alcohol. The Greeks are so nice! Being away and...
I really want this
I don’t think any of this is a good idea but talking to you has made me realise how happy and good I am. I don’t like knowing you’re missing home and how unsettled you are. I need to stop thinking about it and go to sleep. But yes I do miss you. Just not like before.
sometimes i wish i was a guy so i really didnt give a shit.
That’s kind of gutting /:
done it again
finally being honest to someone for the first time in forever has made me feel so much better. it made me cry.
cannot frigging wait till 20th!!
hello Kos and week of sun, sea and sand :)
so frigging excited for Kos
4 weeks today :D
you need to be well and truly out of my head...
i dont want a month of my summer ruined
is it just me or are people stupid?
’ instant coffee? what do you mean?’ :|
You don’t realise how lonely you are until it’s pointed out.
looking forward to pay day
well needed saving and shopping
this year has finally come to something good after all the horrible horrible stuff at the start. uni is nearly finished and even though i know i havent worked hard i hope it went ok. and im actually looking forward to next year, and i am so so looking forward to graduation. work is good. i feel so much part of the team now and we’re having fun sorting it staff celebration week, and planning...
saturday lay in, zumba, chill, eat, trial shift, home, glass of wine. sunday lay in, lazy day, sleep perfect
casual conversations with strangers ending up in them knowing more then they should probably know about you what with them being likely to now want to talk to you at uni whenever you next see them. awkward.
times like this i need somebody who cares. times like this make me fall back to you times like this make me wish i was stronger
planning a green tea flush this week
better go get some before work on tuesday then!
then again, so is using the 15% off Jack Wills...
ohhhhhhh its pay day.
to spend £68 on underwear is so tempting
…….. need Annabel to persuade me
i liked last night
spending way too much online shopping. frick.
sometimes i wish i could take back what i did to you and see how life would have turned out the other way around.. did i choose the wrong road? or was it just a detour to end up back where i started? right now i hope for the latter…
scared of losing everything but making myself proud
everythings changing so fast, im scared of something going so wrong. i havent cried for so long and it feels good. but what if its wrong?
Strange things happening /:
not been on here in a while
but thats because im happy, and the one thing ever stopping me from being happy is not the forefront of my mind 24/7 and yeh i hurt but im happy. i cant wait; to finish uni in 6 weeks, to go to london next week and go to 2 concerts, to plan a holiday with holly in july, to have nats hen party next month and have a fab time with the girls, to have beach trips after work, to have laid back evenings...
sat at home alone, done my housework and the ironing, fed the cat icecream off a spoon, done a work out, looked for a 70s outfit for nats hen night, time for food. pastaaaaa :)
keep refreshing tumblr twitter facebook tumblr twitter facebook…..
too much talk of snow
im in a bad enough mood as it is
looking forward to getting my 10 min toner dvd...
flat tum for summer (:
and this is why i hate birthdays
happy birthday to meee :)
had a lovely day and night with the girlies yesterday (:
thats another birthday ruined
i look so frigging pale in photos cos of my dark hair. i love my hair but i cant wait till spring to go light :)
casually sat staring at a wall when i have to...
screw uni i like my pjs :(
hurry up friday
i want this week to be over.
looking forward to thursday, friday and saturday.
and i guess i should say sunday too.
i really have to get some skills for work done before tomorrow, but everything is seeming more appealing right now, even cleaning my room.. guh. and i need to go get petrol but dont want to till dads looked at my bonnet and ive made sure the light isnt flashing on my dash anymore. and i want to look for my future.. i dont know what to do.
i wish i could follow my dreams.
hustle has gone